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Wednesday, July 22nd, 2009
10:17 pm	See you on the other side. Where we would be released? I would sell out everyone. If I could find such peace. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 5th, 2009
5:01 am	oh heated passion long lost simple find secrets lie out in the open where we fly take these wings pin me down a dream come true cause i am home (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 25th, 2009
1:38 pm	treatment rough draft ideas #1 A scruffy-looking man, adam, is sitting on a street corner smoking a cigarette. His intentions are unknown, but he wears a glare on his face. Suddenly, a car pulls up and 2 imposing men step out. Adam throws the cigarette away and starts running. He is not sure where to run and hide. After every corner he turns, the 2 chasers stay on his heel. Adam considers jumping into a trash bin, but decides against it. Finally, Adam tries to hide in a woman's bathroom. Unfortunately, the 2 chasers find him and drag him to their car. Adam is taken to a room and forced to sit with a girl. A very ugly girl. She gives him a huge smile, and Adam is none to happy with being forced to date her. At the end of the story, they start to watch a movie together. #2 A scruffy-looking man, adam, is sitting on a street corner smoking a cigarette.  He wears a glare on his face. Before long, Adam sees a beautiful girl walking down the street and falls in love. He decides to follow her so he can catch up with her. While following her, she meets up with someone who appears to be her boyfriend. Adam still follows them as they walk through the streets of town. Eventually, the couple has a big fight, and the boyfriend leaves. Adam continues to follow the girl. While Adam is following, both him and the girl turn old and gray. When the girl gets home Adam gets her attention. He walks up to her and kisses her, and that is how they meet. #3 Drew is carrying a large envelope that says, "give this to John." Drew sees John training for a marathon and pursues him. John thinks Drew is trying to mug him, so John runs faster. Drew finally tackles him and gives him the envelope. John is perplexed but opens the envelope. Inside is a smaller envelope that says, "give this to Sally." John finds Sally in the library and Sally slaps John in the face. John gives her the envelope anyway, and walks away without saying anything. Sallys opens the envelope, and there is a smaller one inside that says, "give this to Amanda." Sally begins to cry and immediately goes for a walk. She goes to a cemetery and finds amanda's tombstone. Sally lays the envelope down, and walks away. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 23rd, 2008
1:55 am	no copy and paste I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad I am sad (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, March 7th, 2008
1:03 pm	mix-off versus Eric 1. Hess is More - Walksong 2. Beatles - Wild Honey Pie 3. Interpol - Evil 4. LCD Soundsystem - Watch the Tapes 5. Deerhoof - Panda Panda Panda 6. Jose Gonzales - Hints 7. Pixies - Vamos(Surfer Rosa) 8. Toadies - I Burn 9. Ladytron - CSKA Sofia 10. Sound Team - TV Torso 11. VAST - Free 12. The Czars - Little Pink House 13. Battles - Rainbow 14. The Earlies - One of Us is Dead (Comment on this)
Monday, June 11th, 2007
1:08 pm	The Wind's Song the square root of kiss is a hum i hum under my breath when i contemplate the drum of your heartbeat and my heart beats for your breath i revel in the wind for mere glimpses i'm tornado over you would you look into the eye of my storm i whirlwind through your life like breeze and fill your lungs as we achieve the second power of a hum i love... as instruments come to life through breath the wind sends my high notes to indigo communions with Coltrane's Favorite Things ...this is my body which is given for you, this is my blood which is given for you... my love like the wind, uncaged blows time into timeless whirlpools transfiguring fear and all of its subordinates (possession, jealousy, fear) into crumbling dried leaves my love is the wind's slave and, thus, is free my love is the wind that is shaped as it passes through the lips of earthly vessels becoming words of wisdom songs of freedom or simply hot air my love is the wind's song: if it is up to me, i'll never die. if it is up to me, i'll die tomorrow one thousand times in an hour and live seven minutes later. if it is up to me, the sun will never cease to shine and the moon will never cease to glow and i'll dance a million tomorrows in the sun rays of the moon waves and bathe in the yesterdays of days to come ignoring all of my afterthoughts and preconceived notions if it is up to me, it is up to me and thus is my love: untainted eternal *** the wind is the moon's imagination wandering: it seeps through cracks explores the unknown and ripples the grass my love is my soul's imagination how do i love thee? imagine (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 10th, 2007
9:46 am	I know how to take a picture. I'm sure of it. For some reason, wheneve I'm hired for a job I struggle. When I'm taking pictures just for fun I come up with some really neat photographys. Maybe I'm just really an accidental photographer. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 10th, 2007
12:33 am	I feel absolutely ridiculous when I ask a girl to hang out with me through myspace, but I couldn't wait until tomorrow to call her. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 16th, 2007
3:10 am	I'm in love with the world through the eyes of a girl 1. Do you still talk to the person you lost your virginity to? I don't think I'll ever give away my virginity. Lot's daughter's couldn't trick me into acts of debauchery. 2. What would you do with 1,000 plastic spoons? make a plastic spoon bridge 3.What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school? Garth Brooks and Micheal Jackson. 4.What is the best thing about your current job? It's the only place i interact with people 5.Do you wish cell phone etiquette was a required class? yes, idiots. 6. Are you against same sex marriage? nope 7. Have you been on a date in the past week? no, but i have an urge to ask this girl out in front of 5 people. 8. Where are you going on your next vacation? mars or canada 9. Quote a song lyric: "I'm putting myself on warning for waking up in an unknown place with a recollection that's half-erased looking for somebody's arms to wave away past harms" 10. Are most of the friends in your life new or old? my friends are antideluvian. I've been meaning to catch up with them. 11. Do you own any furniture from Ikea? mirrors 12. Do you like your parents? one of them. 13. Do you still live with them? No, but 14. What state/country are you from? texas/US 15.Tell us about the last conversation you had? Spoke with Ampa about happiness and niceness. To really be happy you have to know what it is to be depressed. To really be nice you can't be some naive person who doesn't know what it takes to be mean. 16. Where do you see yourself in one month? in the photo lab 17. What is your favorite smell? cinnamon 19. Do you consider yourself bi-polar? nope 20. What is the time and the outside temperature at the moment? like i'm going to do that 21. Have you ever done anything vindictive to your coworkers? no, but i have made people cry 22. Have you ever gone to therapy? no 23. Have you ever Played Spin the Bottle? no, and I still wouldn't 24. Have you ever Toilet Papered someone's house? no. 25. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? yeah! 26. Have you ever gone camping? shit yea, I've even camped on the side of the highway with Sean and !indsay. 27. Have you ever had a crush on your brother's friend(s)? No, they're not too impressive. They are nice to me though. 28. Have you ever been to a nude beach? not yet 29. Have you ever drank jack daniels? yes but it's not the best whiskey 30. Have you ever had sex on the beach? no way 31. Have you ever had a stalker? yep, not funny. 32. Have you ever been in love? yes 33. What's your favorite animal? cow, because it tastes good! 34. Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? no, what I do is a laugh until I feel like I have appendicitis. 35. Have you ever gone to a party where you were the only straight person? no, but close to it 36. Have you ever been cheated on? yes, that wasn't very nice of her. 37. Have you ever had sex with one of your myspace friends? heh, no. 38. Have you ever felt betrayed by your best friend? well i have reacted immaturely to my friends... 39. Have you ever felt like you were just completely rhino raped? christmas day at AMC 40. Have you ever lied to your parents? yes 41. Have you ever been out of the US? into Mexico 42. Have you ever thrown up from working out? of course 43. Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore a hat for a month? jessica gave me a pretty bad haircut and I had it fixed that day. 44. Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food places in 1 day? probably 45. Have you ever gotten so wasted you didnt know what was going on? only once when I was 16. 46. Have you ever spied on someone you had a crush on? no way. 47. Have you ever liked someone but thought that they would never like you? yea, all the time. 48. Have you ever told someone you just met everything about your life? what? 49. How long does it normally take for you to get over a guy/girl that you were into but they screwed you over more times than you have body parts? screw me once and you're dead to me. 50. Can you be friends with a person that you cared about after they've hurt you? I can be friends yea. But any possibility beyond that becomes dead to me. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 14th, 2007
1:44 pm	Who'll be counting your mistakes? When you are presented with a question never hesitate to say what you mean. The fine mess that is dawdling is a weight wearing on your shoulders. Owe too much to your past for wasted time and you will be pinned to the ground, metaphorically speaking. There's no shame to not knowing what you want, but pretending you know will amount to second-guessing and regrets. "We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give." - Winston Churchill. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 13th, 2007
12:58 am	Jonathan Safran Froer used a paragraph to describe me in Everything is Illuminated. "He was someone whom everyone admired and liked but whom nobody knew. He was like a book that you could feel good holding, that you could talk about without ever having read, that you could recommend." (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 12th, 2006
11:52 am	I hope she likes Smile Smile (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 3rd, 2006
1:04 am	ugh, I was hit in the face with a softball. so my upperlip is swollen, and I have quite a gash on my gums. There is also a flap of gum hanging loosely that i'm pondering whether or not i should cut off. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 31st, 2006
11:34 pm	in-between time Drew slightly believed that I would not come to Waco. I arrived somewhere between 5 and 6, or perhaps a little bit after 7. 2 critical realizations led to what our saturday night would be about. -Drew had not seen Waiting -I had not had Texas-shaped pizza from Papparrello's As Drew put it, the motto of Papparello's mandates that if you can see the pizza, there is not enough topping on it. It is beyond me why we went to Mr. Gattis inastead the last time I was in Waco. -Gabe called Drew and asked if we wanted to drink whiskey for the night. It's a cool thing that Gabe paid for it. We drank but not to get drunk while watching Waiting. Gabe hadn't seen it either, and they both loved it. It's a funny fucking movie. My favorite part is where the major bitch blows up at the dish washer guy. The movie ended with the night still being young. After Drew showed us all his pictures from London/Boston we decided to go down to Scruffy Murphy's for a game of pool. Some of Drew's friends were there and I'm proud to say I successfully mingled and was even able to tell a timely joke or two. The only thing was annoying is that Gabe talked about music too much. I love talking about music, but he seemed to talk about it in annoying way. Someone mentioned High Fidelity and he felt the need to bring about the top 5 best bands ever discussion. I realized top 5 all-time type lists are a fucking pet peeve of mine. I prefer specialty lists. Top 3 songs after 3 shots of the jack. Top 5 bands that got you through high school... anything but top 5 bands of all time. If you ask me my top 5 bands of all time, i will tell you that great truth feels like a slap in the face. And then I will slap you in the face twice. Why would I do that? I don't like repeating myself either. Anyway, it was good times at Scruffy Murphy's. Some guy came back with me, Drew, and Gabe but I can't remember his name. We went out on the balcony and played the Extreme Cigarette Challenge. If you were there, you would participate by flicking a finished cigarette into this tree right in front of us to see if you could make it hang in the branches. Drew currently has the all-time record with 6. I didn't get any, but trying to get just one to hang sure did make me want to keep smoking cigarettes. Me and Drew ended up shooting the shit until a little after 4, alot before 5 in the morning. The plan was to wake up at 12 to explore surrounding areas of Austin before Charlie got off work at 4. So, we left the next day at 4 o'clock and go directly to Charlie's house without stopping anywhere. Charlie took us to this neat hippie shop where I was able to find a birthday present for my mother. I got her an Elvis lunchbox and a pop-up birthday card. I think i'll also get her some crackers. We went back to Charlie's to play halo 2 on xbox live until about 9 o'clock. I dropped Drew off in Waco and was able to get home midway between 1 and 2 in the morning. A big deal did happen in Austin. While we waited for Charlie to come let us past the gates to his apartment a truck pulled up behind us. Charlie had to come all the way up next to my side of the car because he had to use a security card to unlock the gates. He had no remote or anything like that. So, the gate opens and Charlie hops on top of my door since the driver's side window is open. We go past the gate and I'm starting to turn left to park right when the truck behind us speeds up to pass us on our left. Luckily, I assessed the situation in time to brake suddenly so that Charlie wouldn't get killed. I thought we'd never see him again. But as Charlie is driving us to Freebirds we see that same truck. It's some kind of service truck that has a "How's My Driving?" number on it. You better believe we called that number and reported him. Drew said, "This guy, he's crazy, I would say he's drunk but it's only like 6 o'clock" to the operator. In the end if Drew had known that would turn out to be a 5-minute phone call he never would have made that call. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 27th, 2006
4:22 am	definitely got the too much work thing going down i only came home to check my e-mail and take a shower. Both are vital to my hygiene. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 26th, 2006
5:24 pm	I've been having too much fun at work this week. I need to cut it out and do too much work at work (Comment on this)
12:16 am	set the course for tokyo!? oh, no! Some people are a bargain, and I certainly am. This whole nothing started with a thought(or realization maybe better describes it...) I did notice that when I have company it is probably because i make ceaseless efforts of calling. Rarely, was I ever called out for anything. in case you missed it, i'm talking about friends. It was a struggle(or scary) to think about why it was that way. One way or the other, I was a certain way and something had to change. I was barely in the mood for abandonment, so don't think, stranger, that I would choose to absolutely not place an inviting call until I recieved a call. I chose to stay back a bit though the few invitations i made, the less they could be accorded. With shock and serious appetite for ice cream, I noticed very rare attempts from the friends to invite me anywhere. There are few things worse than realizing that day after day, your friends are sitting around NOT thinking if it's possible to have you with them for the night. When I think this, I feel I'm imposing and my friendship is a tax on time. what i write is offensive,... even worse to hold back In due time I came to terms that I have to find new regularity. There are options abound as usual and though I consider making new friends to be easy I don't consider it any less heartbreak. No, not heartbreaking. Heartflooding is more like it because nothing I feel ever dies. The more that is alive in me, the shiftier I become. "oh simple thing, where have you gone?" This is how I have been for the last 3 months. I wouldn't say any of it out loud except to my 2 confidants. For a while I became brilliant at writing about anything else, but now as I sit looking at my journal I have run out of other things to think about for the sake of thinking about something. Unfortanutely, I reacted by doing nothing. I don't just mean avoiding being confrontational. I have sat around and done nothing. Definitely, not very matty-like. After breaking myself down, I'm ready to build myself back up. It can still be said that it is true matty fashion to deal with things alone. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 16th, 2006
1:32 pm	oh, that's you!? what can i do? tra la, lala la la If I interpreted last night's dream correctly, it meant something like "go to UNT you asshole." But I don't know what a beach was doing in Denton. I spent the entire yesterday completely forgetting about everything by playing video games and eating lots of cookies. It was nice and it was not nice. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 15th, 2006
12:02 am	a lifelong battle of making it appear that nothing bothers me is turning ill nice words can help for only so long conditional words sting once they are past due but oh those mean ones tend to stick like leeches then to rid is to rip off then the remainder is a fading scar (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 14th, 2006
2:08 am	it's gone from light to gray the eyelid is getting bigger, i think that means it's getting better. It definitely looks like a bug bite occurred. Doesn't hurt as much as it has been these last few days. I did just try to use a pair of tweezers to pop it, but after 10 tries of immense pain and nearly stabbing my eye out i gave it up. If it's not gone by Saturday, I'm not going to the party. Hopefully, Mario will see Drawing Restraint with me, and then I can come back home to write in my journal. (Comment on this)